This year I wanted to observe Lent but in my own way. As a Christian, I wanted to say a little of my love and faith with others, so I sent 40 letters to people who had touched my life in some way. The 40th and the final letter I decided to share. It’s a letter to myself and a reflection of the journey itself.
What an amazing journey you have been on for the last 40 days. Though you fell behind a few times, you managed to persevere, get it together and accomplish quite a goal. There is no doubt that God put this journey in your heart. I think it’s obvious now, as to why he did so.
It’s so easy to get caught up in life, the busyness, the chaos, and the stress of life. Sometimes we get so consumed and caught up in our own lives, we fail to reach out to the people in our lives that genuinely love and care about us. This journey was chosen specifically for you. In the execution of writing these letters, you could give a little of God’s love back to another person. You gave each recipient the ability to see themselves as someone who loves them would see them. Sometimes we get lost and fail to see ourselves in the best possible light. These letters were a gift to each person, to see the love that they themselves have inside and may have forgotten about.
The forty people you chose, they are the forty people who have made a big impact on your life, or helped shape and mold you into the woman you are. Each recipient no matter how big or small of a role they had in your life, made a difference. God placed those people in your path for a reason, to make you the person he created you to be.
Through the last year, you have started what you thought was merely a weight loss journey, but the truth is, it’s so much more than that. The little-known fact about weight loss is that it is so much more than just eating healthier and exercising, it’s an emotional and mental journey as well. When you look in the mirror the reflection staring back is not always the person you know yourself to be. The girl you see may still be the one you were when the journey first started not necessarily the woman you are now. You still see the insecurities, the flaws, and the general dislike for the excess weight. BUT that is no longer you, Kristi. The reflection staring back at you in so much more than a girl worried about her insecurities, flaws or her weight.
The new reflection I see in the mirror is that of a beautiful girl. A girl that may have scars, wrinkles, or stretch marks, but a girl who owns those flaws and refuses to let them define her any longer. A girl that has a kind, caring heart that loves her family and her friends fiercely. A girl that sees the best in people and refuses to judge by exterior appearances. A girl that gives people many chances, because she chooses to continue to search for the good in people. A girl that cares deeply, loves hard and falls often. A girl that no matter what life throws at her, she pauses, reflects and tackles each obstacle head on. A girl that has an unwavering Faith in God, and sharing that love and faith with others.
Kristi, you have grown so much in the past year. Continue to surround yourself with people who love and inspire you. Continue to open yourself up to others, but wisely. Love often. Laugh often. Always be you! And most importantly, always praise God for every single thing. “I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.”